Wednesday, October 9, 2013

During one of the most difficult times of my life....something wonderful happened.

After  Mom unexpectedly passed away in June of 2012, I was lost.
We did EVERYTHING together. I felt like my right arm and leg had been cut off. Just to get into the car and drive somewhere by myself was so awkward and painful. It was a HUGE void for me.

It took awhile, and a lot of prayer ..... and  I started to heal. I can now get into the car without looking at the other seat and feeling awkward. It took awhile and it hurt for quite some time, but it's getting better.

In the past year, I've had to encourage myself, daily, that I have to keep moving forward. Don't stop. Don't get caught up in depression. There is a time to mourn, of coarse. But not allow depression to overtake me.

I had to keep telling myself that Mom wouldn't want me to stop living. She would want me to move forward. It's hard sometimes to find the balance in grieving and moving on.

Then .....during one of the most difficult times of my life....something wonderful happened.
I am now in a relationship with someone that has always been special to me and my Mom.
We've known each other and kept in touch for over 28 years.

After Mom passed, Mike came to Tennessee to visit me.
We had a great time together. We laughed and laughed, talked and talked. It was one of the best weeks I've had in years.
As time moved forward, we decided to take our relationship to a new level.
Hence my move to Michigan.


Mike and I on a day trip to Chattanooga Tennessee -2012


It's been so awesome to have something over the top happen in the midst of something that was so devastating. I'm reminded of the scripture that talks about beauty for ashes. That's how I feel. I felt like my life was over when Mom passed. How could I move forward without her? I'll admit. I've had some guilt about feeling happy in the midst of  the huge loss.
My Mom would be so happy for us and I know somehow she knows that we are together.

Mom will always be a void in my life. She is missed everyday. But I know that she would want me to move forward and see how my story turns out.

It is hard to go junking without her....she always told me that would be her legacy. I know her legacy is so much more than passing down the art of junkin'....but I know she would be so happy that I have followed in her footsteps and that my desire is to continue on with Entirely Apropos.

Mike and I talk about her often, which is nice. I'm glad that Mike knew Mom and that they too had a special friendship. Makes it even sweeter.

My new beginning is just what the Dr. ordered. Even though I lived in this area 30 years ago, it's all new to me. Mike has taken me to some beautiful places that I don't remember visiting while growing up in the state of Michigan. It's been a wonderful summer. Of coarse with any move, there are adjustments, but so worth it.

I know I mentioned in the last post that I was going to talk about some down time I was able to embrace last month.... I'll share that next time.

Until then,
Happy Treasure Hunting ..... and thanks for stopping by. Means so much. xoxo
Hugs!
Julie